~~Wonder~~

I wonder if I could go back in time where would I be today?
Would we love eachother the same way?
I Wonder
How would you feel if I were to physically change?
Would you treat me better? Or in a worst way
I Wonder

What does love really mean to you?
Do you really love me as you say you do?
I Wonder
Do you think of me when you do the stupid things you do?
The effect it will have on the relationship between me and you,
Because honestly, I don't think you do.

Because if you did, you would realize
I no longer smile around you as much as I used to.
Your hood personality, and your street mentality
Your obsessive masculinity,
And you unrealistic accusations take a toll on me and my inner personality.

I tried to change into everything that you want me to be,
But I can't.

As we slip into the future
I Wonder
Will our paths of life intertwine?
Or will we be forced to live our separate lives?
As we progress,
I Wonder.

I wonder will I be yours and you mine?
Or will we be forced to to stand on the side lines
And witness eachother progress in our own lives
APART

As people on the outside look in on our relationship
The think that everything is perfect.
But if only they knew the truth behind the fake smile.
If only they knew the shit I go through.

If only they knew the shit I go through.
If only they knew how much I loved you.
But my love for you is starting to decline.
Because of you I sit up at night and cry,
I cry because im hurt,
Not physically but emotionally
You hurt me in ways that I never thought could be.

Should I stay or should I leave?
I wonder what the effect would be,
What will the future hol between you and me?
Only Time will tell.